off-the-wallflower child

God sang as He commanded creation He danced too... Bent down and smiled at the sun Stirred space a little And Earth danced along At the perfect angle around the sun He stood up straight Cocked His head to the side Hands akimbo Threw His head back And laughed The angels broke into a chorus And clapped their hands to a rhythm Swayed side to side And stopped He continued in a solo And began to mold my eyes Then drew my lips He frowned in concentration Then paused His song Closed His eyes And let out a long baritone end The happy chorus began again Feet thumped the ground And fueled the rhythm I heard a saxophone then, and drums A grand piano and tambourines and... He grabbed my hand and we danced We danced and danced... Then I feel a gush of air on my face I breathe, then cry... I am alive. Caffeine

Do you want to know the truth about 2009? Yes. Yes, now. Now, I remember why I awoke breathless. Only just some, really. Every night I am afraid to sleep. I wouldnt wake up. Like of mercy and forgiveness and strength and grace, I am afraid. Because what if I am forced to hell when I dont wake up. I am afraid so... I would feel my chest for my heart beat and close my eyes... I said, 'Please, just this night.'. I am at the edge of a cliff and the water below is angry. Wind in my face. Cold, wet, salty. I am barefeet. The sand is mossy. I squeeze my toes and look down. The height is hypnotic and I want to lean over. I bend down to kneel. I swear, I hear the water cursing... I stand, I am afraid now. I stop rocking on my heels and toes. And turn around. I cant hear my feet above the sound of my heart racing. Yet as I walk away from the edge I panic a little. I cant see the rough waves or the reflection of the flat grey clouds along the deep ripples of the dirty sea; and I panic. I...